Mrigank just asked this question in Indiblogger on Indispire to which fire of thoughts got liberated from many Indibloggers. And here is mine - "I don't have an after-state , for I'm not yet out of the grief and not yet into the realization, that it happened"
I used to say these exact lines so many times, that God only knew - Had he fulfilled all, I would be long dead.
Call from a hospital at Tirukovilur, that said my grandmother is serious, she is in death bed, and is on ventilator now, that if they take the ventilator off, she die the very moment. We held our hearts tight that broke to pieces hearing that very statement from hospital – “Ventilator edutha avanga poiduvanga nga. Inum rendu moonu naal than thaangum”[If we take the ventilator off, she would die the very moment. Sorry, she could hardly stand for 2 -3 days ]
We were shocked, deep in grief and we stood completely blank and tightlipped on how we are going to save her. We struggled to keep her up to the maximum, we called up to our paternal uncle who stayed near to the hospital and who was with our granny that time. He picked the call and gave the phone to our grandmother. And she said those painful lines – “ammmmmuuuu…….. Ammmaadddiii…. Un kalyanatha paaka than usira kaiyila pudichittu irukken ma,,,,en raaaaaasaaathi, ni nallla irukanum”
She couldn’t speak any word other than – “Paati…paaati…. Paati… onnnum aagathu ungaluku,,, you will come for my marriage.. onnum aagathu”
Not that he didn’t have feelings, but that, God played a very smart role, making it happen on a very planned day, That he took the most lovable woman and at the same time , didn’t let anyone cry over it.